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Just a 'random' guy having emotions and some stuff he likes in this world.

Definitely feels like Paris!

It’s so cold in my blog, innit? It’s been a very long time since I posted my worthless -I’m just being polite ^^ - thoughts last. Of course I won’t go any further and make effortlessly f***ed up reasons. I’m no gentleman, yet. 

Being in Ankara would make me say ‘It feels like Paris’ only when I’m drunk. I’ve not drunk anything but water and organic milk today, I swear. It was not an extraordinary Sunday when I opened my dull eyes to the foggy, cloudy and immensely air-polluted day in Ankara. After my NLP tracks, (Think I need another post for these drug-like CDs. They’re really addictive.) I went out with my roomie. We stopped by around my university’s central campus. Thought it’d be nice to show him the interior which I find pretty vintage. Too many old buildings around that terribly resemble to the ones on HP movies. Anyways, I showed my ID pass to the stuff and thought we could just go on after that procedure.

That’s the point when we were beamed up to Paris!

I know it’s so vain to interrupt the story just when you’re focused on but I need to make it clear what ‘Paris’ means in that sentence. You may have seen - If u’re reading this post you’ve had seen it already! - La Fabuleux Destin D’Amelie Poulian. In this movie, There’s a beggar who tells Amelie that it’s Sunday and of course he doesn’t work on Sundays. He also says : ‘Merci’.

He was not a beggar. However, His intellectuality made me feel in safe!

The guy working at the security department of my faculty said that he knew Ottoman Language and he added that his wife was a translator and she knew French and English. I said to myself : ‘All of the people working in jobs like this must be like him.’. We had a proper(!) conversation that is terribly hard to find even when you’re in an intellectual town.(A sort of place where you can find writers, translators, artists, etc.) He also praised on me just because of my eyes shining for Japanese and simply for JP. 

In conclusion, Ankara went ‘Neverland’ just for a day and I’m thankful for greeting the neverland passing by. 

Hush, little baby, don’t say a word!

It’s been a pretty harsh period for me since the moment I suspended my asexuality at all. I’ve been an asexual for a long time and maybe that’s because I’ve forgotten how to make a cheap -or a long-term-fucking-cheap one- indeed. It’s been a bleak trial and I’m writing about that famine-of-wickedness-stroy just in to remind my sweet self that I may have been born as an asexual. ;)

After that hard-hitting brief, I should give us some more details!
It all has started no sooner than I came back to Ankara with a f***ed up demeanour cause of my visas and the rush-rush season of holiday at my hometown. In that silly slow-arsed mood, I went drinking every single night for a week and a week after I did the same with my old dormmate. The story’s been reasonable ‘enough’ so far.
One midnight after getting high, I txted him - the one who’d a pretty asexual walk with me - and talked about everything including his boyfriend and religion. So, He left me speechless with the things he said, indeed. It was obvious that he’d been happy with a guy who’s 3 years(!) younger than him. 

That was the night I created a bootie call list. Of course, Unintentionally! 
I went for tons of peeps around and I was on the verge of meeting with some of them. Here’s a great statistics for us coming to sound like a pure class dodge. 99% of them went for a conversation like a hunter looking for some ‘raw meat’ to please himself. I didn’t give a damn about them that much. The thing is, The 1% were neither looking for a long term relationship nor my type. Surprisingly, These facts were not enough to stop me at all. I’ve been investigating for a ‘decent’ person for a week but all I’ve found is kilos of flesh.

My castle, My Rules!
In conclusion, I’m planning ot keep my asexuality for the lifetime. I’m happier than ever in my very Amelie Poulain mood for sure. I’ve got tons of magnificent and precious people. They never hesitate to share their love with me and today I’ve realized that my fam and friends are way better than all these tons of meat!

Simply, Love the world no matter what it brings to you.

xo 


The Immortals - Simply, ZzZz.

I’ve seen billions of cheap movies and cheap 3Ds and 3D remakes but it was the worst movie I’ve seen so far. Yet I think it’ll be the sole movie requiring a vomit box while watching it in the future.

Seems cool, innit?

Comparing to a very cheap and childish 5D movie (The ones you’ll see in shopping malls and fairs in Turkey) Immortals has way more litres of blood and abdominals on the screen. The synopsis, OSTs, The cast etc. Everything is so disgusting that I don’t wanna waste my time for commenting on each and every section. Maybe it’s because I left the theatre w/o seeing the second part. I was the righteous one to have deserved a vomitbox outside the theatre, tho.

Frankly, I’d be glad if I saw that movie on the ‘Worst List’ on IMDB cause even the worst one called Daniel - Der Zauberer has at least a ‘synopsis’.

P.S: That protagonist may look charming but he can’t beat Sam Worthington as Perseus on ‘Clash of the Titans’ or simply anyone playing on a ‘harem’ and ‘war’ themed sort of a picture.

oldfilmsflicker:

other times you just want to bludgeon your eyes out and marvel at how someone can make it to grad school and still not grasp basic grammatical principles. 

One of the best scenes ever. #SunsetBlvd

oldfilmsflicker:

other times you just want to bludgeon your eyes out and marvel at how someone can make it to grad school and still not grasp basic grammatical principles. 

One of the best scenes ever. #SunsetBlvd

Metaforcuk.

Sessizsen, etliye sutluye karismiyorsan ozellikle, ‘Efendi’sindir. Sucluysan ve sessizsen sucunun derecesine gore sinsi ya da sogukkanlisindir. Bana gore sessizsen, tum dunyaya bir baskaldiri icindesindir. Delirdigin gune kadar sessiz kalirsan peygamber sabrin vardir arkadas. Oncesinde bozarsan bu sessizligi sen de sahte mutluluk maskesini ve onun yaninda promosyon olarak sunulan at gozluklerini takmis olursun. Simdi. Biraz ses yapalim mi yoksa sessiz cigliklarimiza bogulalim mi?

Asexuality : (Get) Benefit, (Have) Fun, Seize (the day)

It literally works in this way. In order to feed the craving monster inside your heart, You feel the urgency to have fun and more and more of it. It may sound grim but believe me considering that -sooner or later- we’re all gonna give up playing this repetitive and cliche game called life, We think we should have fun and get benefit of everything that we’re gifted by God. A guy/girl is the only reason why you go depressive when you think you’re gonna die, I assume. That’s the only reason why I’m living a life instead of devoting it to a third party guy/girl.

After a sort of f***ed up brief, I think I can go on with pros and cons of being an asexual. Why not to make it way simple? Let’s create a list! :)

Pros

Here’s my top 5. I bet there’s more of them for the Asexuals around the world. :)

  •  The best thing about being an asexual is being free as a bird. You may leave for a far-off city whenever you want w/o giving a damn about anyone.
  • You can create lists, make a schedule for your own sweet self and have a life in your way.
  • A huge bed to sleep! It’s the best thing I’ve ever led to. :)
  • Having tons of Straight and LGBT friends. Just when you tell people about yourself, They consider you as a saint or a pet and feel close to you just as a friend. No strings attached, literally, lol.
  • A unique point of view. Goggles out when you’re an asexual. ;) The facts are all naked now, w.

Cons

There are not so much of it but if you’re blue, life gets harder for an asexual.

  • In a depressive day, The cute couples cuddling could make you go question yourself. Other than being a detective of mine, I’d prefer being questioned in Iraq or anywhere coming to sound slightly unbearable.
  • I’ll speak to you directly. Asexuality makes you hornier than ever. It’s the second con I’ve ever faced w/.

As you see, An asexual is not a straight nor a homo. He/She just enjoys and celebrates the fact that we’re living a life on a mesmerizing planet like that. Most of us are humanists and yes we like hugging like Teletubbies.

It’s the manual of an asexual written by Me. I’ll explain it in details in the next posts. I’m super excited. :3

(Source: Wikipedia)

Flickumblr.

I love using Tumblr as a source for movies. I follow cinephiles and movie interpreters just in to intercede my brain when remembering the name or the plot of a movie. I must be making a realization just to tell myself ‘You eventually posted something.’ cause I’ve been warching movies -the greatest ones just as every single scene captured so far and will be- and after each and every one of them I feel the need of posting my comments to the massive world of words called Tumblr. That’s all I had to say to stay sane. Good night and good luck.

I don’t know how she does it - really don’t know.

It’s a pleasure for a passionate admirer of Sarah Jessica Parker like me to see her in another identity in pictures, again. She’s been a good example of a single, working New Yorker women so far. SATC is her masterpiece, for example. However, She’s good at showing us the dark side of business life. In her latest picture, I don’t know how she does it, she reflects the office life in such a realistic way that I felt like her assistant. As if it were real for real.

I feel the urgency to thank Aline Brosh McKenna and the writer of the novel,
Allison Pearson by heart. To me, They’ve a great sense for observation that can never be undervalued.

As for me, It was not on my #fridayflick list till I see Sarah’s name in the cast section on IMDB, indeed. I was having quiet a tough week and needed to see a picture on a theatre. After seeing Pierce Brosnan, SJP and the others; I realized I could smile which was pretty hard an action to manifest surprisingly.

By the way, I feel like this post is inefficient but I didn’t wanna spill out the best scenes and it would be cqlled as ‘spoiler’. This is one of the movies that I’ve already added to the romance/comedy section on my collection.

Enjoy that movie session with alot of popcorn, btw. :)

theloudestvoice:

Gloria Swanson portrait by Otto Dyar for Music in the Air

“I have gone through a long apprenticeship. I have gone through enough of being nobody. I have decided that when I am a star, I will be every inch and every moment the star. Everyone from the studio gateman to the highest executive will know it.” (Gloria Swanson c. 1922)

Mission accomplished, Gloria.  
Aaaaand that concludes my weekend of Swanson. I seriously feel like she and I have hung out all weekend, and now it’s Sunday and I have no idea what to do with myself! Gloria, I miss you already.

She’s such a goddess. I’m a huge admirer of her works and simply her style. J’adore Gloria.

theloudestvoice:

Gloria Swanson portrait by Otto Dyar for Music in the Air

“I have gone through a long apprenticeship. I have gone through enough of being nobody. I have decided that when I am a star, I will be every inch and every moment the star. Everyone from the studio gateman to the highest executive will know it.” (Gloria Swanson c. 1922)

Mission accomplished, Gloria.  

Aaaaand that concludes my weekend of Swanson. I seriously feel like she and I have hung out all weekend, and now it’s Sunday and I have no idea what to do with myself! Gloria, I miss you already.

She’s such a goddess. I’m a huge admirer of her works and simply her style. J’adore Gloria.

Unknown : Who am I?

I wasn’t aware of the existence of this movie and I was not waiting for that movie for a specific time period. That’s why I confused Liam Neeson with Daniel Craig when I saw its poster for the first time. I realized the grim truth when I saw him waking up in a hospital. (Sorry for the lil’ spoiler leakage)

He does resemble to Daniel Craig with his 007 look. :)

It was a good choice for Saturday and I watched it alone cause I needed some ‘lonely’ time and I pretty enjoyed it. The theatre was not full and all the audience were here for the movie. I didn’t see anyone kissing or cuddling, lol.

When it comes to the movie, - I think I can tell you about the plot - Our character arrives Berlin with his partner and tells the stuff that they’re here for Biotech seminar. After that, You understand that they’re spies and from this moment on everything goes upside down. From start to the end of the movie, I felt the action in my vessels wandering around my body.

Türkischer Effekt

There’s also a good point that I’ve seen so many Turks speaking in Turkish in this movie and thought it was dubbed but figured out it’s not. The sole language forced me to read the subs was German.

Note : 8.0 - It deserves to be seen on DVD - or on theatres if you’re down - and it’s just an action flick that makes you feel satisfied with the things you see. :)

(Source: unknownmovie.warnerbros.com)

I woke up today with this song in my mind today and thanks to Midomi I could find the exact name of it and found a videoclip about the movie. After that, I found Francis Lai’s edition. It’s been playing on my personal player and my computer since the moment I’m introduced to her brilliant voice. In short, The summer breeze’s passing my heart and leaving dust particles crying out for love and whirling slowly around my body. It’s poisoning my mind with the thought of cheap affairs of our age. However, This ‘cheap-affair’ is enough to keep my heart warm. J’ai besoin d’femme in to make it real. x

Attenzioni

The worst addiction one could ever have is ‘Human-kinds’. Even lackness of chocolate doesn’t hurt me as one of them do. There’s a great solution for this addiction. It’s pretty lame I know but ‘Do not fell in love’. 100% works! (´∀`)

Kendi kendime mırıldanırken bir anda YouTube’da bu şarkıyı aradığımı ve hatta videonun yüklendiğini fark ettim. Şarkıyı dinlediğimde kendimden çok ‘O’nu düşündüm. Başka biri için üzülmeyeli uzun zaman olmuştu. Üzülmekten korktuğumdan etrafa sahte ve yavan gülüşler attığımı fark ettim yine aynı şarkıda. Rilakkuma’dan Nietzche’ye dönüşmemi sağlayan kadına binlerce kez teşekkürler. Sezen Aksu, bana değerini yitirdiğim şeyleri tekrardan kazanma gücü veriyorsun. İyi ki varsın.

(Source: youtube.com)

When I heard this song, I couldn’t help thinking about X and me, again. Well, It’s not that I’m not over X but I think this song perfectly reflects my feelings. :)

(Source: youtube.com)