Hush, little baby, don’t say a word!
It’s been a pretty harsh period for me since the moment I suspended my asexuality at all. I’ve been an asexual for a long time and maybe that’s because I’ve forgotten how to make a cheap -or a long-term-fucking-cheap one- indeed. It’s been a bleak trial and I’m writing about that famine-of-wickedness-stroy just in to remind my sweet self that I may have been born as an asexual. ;)
After that hard-hitting brief, I should give us some more details!
It all has started no sooner than I came back to Ankara with a f***ed up demeanour cause of my visas and the rush-rush season of holiday at my hometown. In that silly slow-arsed mood, I went drinking every single night for a week and a week after I did the same with my old dormmate. The story’s been reasonable ‘enough’ so far.
One midnight after getting high, I txted him - the one who’d a pretty asexual walk with me - and talked about everything including his boyfriend and religion. So, He left me speechless with the things he said, indeed. It was obvious that he’d been happy with a guy who’s 3 years(!) younger than him.
That was the night I created a bootie call list. Of course, Unintentionally!
I went for tons of peeps around and I was on the verge of meeting with some of them. Here’s a great statistics for us coming to sound like a pure class dodge. 99% of them went for a conversation like a hunter looking for some ‘raw meat’ to please himself. I didn’t give a damn about them that much. The thing is, The 1% were neither looking for a long term relationship nor my type. Surprisingly, These facts were not enough to stop me at all. I’ve been investigating for a ‘decent’ person for a week but all I’ve found is kilos of flesh.
My castle, My Rules!
In conclusion, I’m planning ot keep my asexuality for the lifetime. I’m happier than ever in my very Amelie Poulain mood for sure. I’ve got tons of magnificent and precious people. They never hesitate to share their love with me and today I’ve realized that my fam and friends are way better than all these tons of meat!
Simply, Love the world no matter what it brings to you.
xo
